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Emma Danielle – a Mother’s Love

March 28, 2011

Life is precious.  Treasure it.  Hold on to it.  Capture what you can out of it. 

Me & Emma

Our sweet Emma Danielle, was born and passed away on Friday, March 11, 2011.  Life has been on hold for the past two weeks for my physical healing, emotional healing (still ongoing), and just getting through Emma’s memorial service, burial and a family “renewing” trip following the funeral.  Life has been a whirlwind of activity, but through it all I miss my baby.  She was absolutely beautiful.

However, God had a plan for Emma and He has a plan for you.  We are doing quite well despite our loss, but that’s because we know where Emma is.  She’s resting in the arms of Jesus.  He sings to my sweet Emma every day.  While most of us take a lifetime to fulfill God’s plan for us, Emma completed her plan before she was even born.  She was our miracle baby – only the miracle was in her death, not her life.  Had she lived, others would not know God’s love.  He brought her into this world for the purpose of bringing others to Him.  That was evident from the moment we were told she did not have a heartbeat.  It was the worst moment of my life – knowing that I would birth a baby who would never breathe her first breath.  But that “peace that surpasses all understanding” was upon my husband and me as we worked through the delivery. 

It’s been difficult, but we know that God is in control.  He has a plan.  He knows what is best.  Our trust and faith lie in Him.  For more details on our faith, please read Emma’s eulogy that my husband and I wrote.  It explains so much of what we feel.

Emma’s Eulogy

Dad & Emma

March 11th is a day that most will remember as the day Japan was hit with an earthquake, a tsunami and nuclear reactor problems.  But back here in Austin, Texas, our own little world was literally shaken to its foundations.  Our little Emma came into this world in a way so unexpected and so heartbreaking that no one was prepared for the heart-crushing words, “I’m sorry, but she has no heartbeat.”  There’s no way to explain the feeling of despair and sorrow that those words had on us.  Our hopes and dreams of a bigger family were dissolved in a matter of mere seconds – no midnight feedings or dances around the house to calm baby Emma.  The diapers would never be used, the car seat would never hold little Emma and we would leave the hospital with no baby in our arms.  We wondered, “How do we plan a funeral for a baby who hasn’t even been born yet?” 

However, in the midst of the fire, a sudden and unexplained peace came into our lives – a peace that surpasses all understanding.  From the moment those words were uttered, our lives were forever changed and so were those around us.  Hearts opened that had been closed and unreachable.  God’s grace filled the room almost instantly – a grace so strong only an angel could have prompted our Father in heaven to fill the room with his spirit.  Emma was that angel – pleading for her parents and everyone else involved.

I can tell all of you here, and a lot of you were in the room with us at one point or another, that something God-inspired happened that day.  A force from our Almighty God moved around the room, setting a tone of love, peace, and understanding that can only come from Heaven.  Men of the strongest steel were left as weak as a newborn babe.  Women hardened by life became supple and malleable again.  Questions about life, eternity and heaven were raised again and again.  How could this happen?  Why did it have to be Emma?  People not sure of their faith suddenly had clarity and vision.   We often said this baby was our miracle baby – but the miracle of Emma was not in her life, but in her passing on to heaven.  Had she lived, we would not have seen God’s mercy, love, grace, forgiveness and peace enter so many lives.  Emma’s passing made people face the world and the reality of life and death.  She made people dare to be strong, to walk the line, to profess their faith.  We were able to laugh and cry over our sweet Emma.  Complete strangers were made Brothers and Sisters in Christ our Lord. 

Emma came with a message from God.  She wanted to let everyone know that everything is going to be ok.  God has us cradled in His everlasting arms.  She wanted everyone to know that laughter is the best medicine for the soul.  We’re joyful that Emma is in heaven with Jesus – where He wants us all to be.  She wanted everyone to be the best they can be for all things should done for the glory of God.  Parents – hug your children, young or old.  They are blessings from God and should be treated as treasures.  Worldly possessions don’t really matter.  Lay your treasures up in heaven for earthly possessions will rust or decay.  And most of all she wanted to remind people that they should turn on their lights.   She’s probably giggling as she sees the looks on your faces right about now, but she said, make sure they turn the light up all the way.  Let your light shine everywhere you go.  Be a light to the world so that others may know Christ.  Through her passing, Emma had an ability to bring people together.  She had the amazing grace only angels have.   Emma Danielle wants you to know she loves all of you and she wants you to know that Jesus loves you, too.  

And we wanted to tell Emma – we love you so much and we look forward to the day that we can meet you face to face in heaven, where we can laugh with you, pick flowers in the clouds, slide down rainbows and give you all the hugs and kisses we’ll have stored up for you while here on earth.  Jesus holds you now and we know that there’s no better place for you to be.  We’ll see your smile in every sunbeam and know that you’re smiling back at us.  Shine on, sweet Emma, shine on.

2 Comments leave one →
  1. Donna Hamilton permalink
    May 1, 2011 4:04 am

    Wow, I am so glad I clicked on your weblink “Lone Star Homestead”. Thank you for sharing your life and love story of Emma Danielle. We have all been transformed in some manner by her presence in this world. What joy shall fill your hearts one day when you meet face to face once again!

    We love you and admire the courage the Lord has given you all. Please know we are always here, praying and thinking of you all.

    In HIS love, Coby & Donna H!

    • May 1, 2011 12:39 pm

      Thanks, Donna. Without God, we would be in a dark place. He sustains us through the darkest days and brings eternal hope to those who believe. He carries us and lifts us when it’s hard to take that extra step. He gives us the strength we need when we need it the most. See you Sunday!

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